7/1/06
I wish I could show you my inner most thoughts, wishes and dreams.
I yearn for the technology to photograph my soul’s visions so that you may see how intricate and important each band of its creative tune is.
Like many before you claim, I AM DIFFERENT! So I will ask you now as I asked them then to define my individuality; show me how.
Like patrons many tried; brainstorming through every color-filled verb in the dictionary and still failed to give my heart the satisfactory sound of his own individually descriptive tongue.
It is not my goal to drive away all who care despite the assumptions circling your brain; it is instead to rid myself of the consistent droan of half-heartedly made claims and compliments to which my ears have forcingly taken immunity to.
Your frustrations are becoming more visible now and although I perceive that I am its sole provider for growth, my ability and willingness to change is that of none.
If this safe you can not crack, perhaps you be not its owner. So I beg of your noble side; thievery is that of false pretenses in which case no one wins especially in matters of the heart. Ignorance is not welcome here, YOU HAVE NOTHING TO PROVE, so please, good sir, either really love me, really want me, really need me, or just leave me be.